with the chains around my neck and my broken heart song i wish for so many things, a train wreck on my heart so the beating will stop or maybe a rush of lightning in my mind so all the neurons will blow away into wind dust or nothingness, just something not this - wish for all the change and all the silent things that lie inside my mind, wish that i could be a strong deceiver or maybe firm believer, someone worth the efforts and your pain - wish that i could be a guard against the hurt that i throw on you today. and if i don't break when will i? if i don't shake down, if i don't break down, if i don't lie here in the sand with you, when will i die for this and when will i suffer for my sins, oh elizabeth - my sorrow and my pain. i'm doing this, i'm down in this and i can feel it start to brush away, away, away - we will be alright, i'm just so tired - today. so pass away today, and come back for tomorrow you know that i will be the healed and strong again that day, so pass away today, and you will find me standing there and heavy with regret, i wish for so much more - but i find trouble believing my slipping troubled ways - so i tell you elizabeth - we're doing alright, alright, today.


___---parch